Tired

As you the readers of GregsHead may already know... I am busy. Busier, more stretched-thin, and just more tired than I can ever remember being. Maybe it's just cause I'm getting old?

Maybe I'm still trying to do too much.

But last night, as I was reading the day's emails, news, and various things around and about Facebook, I found myself being fed up. I felt fine overall, but I might describe the emotions I felt toward some emails, news headlines, Facebook status messages, and even just general life circumstances as "despair". I was just tired of everything and wanted it all to go away and never come back. Inside I was shouting, "I just don't want to deal with this anymore!!!!"

Then I had to chuckle. I thought it was pretty weird (and slightly humorous) how being tired can make you feel despondent like that. :-) I realized cognitively that was the case, I was just extremely over-tired. And, I did feel better this morning. But, I'm starting to feel the drag again tonight.

Probably something needs to change. I still haven't figured out what. But every day I am tired. Every night I am more tired. I miss having fun. With my family, with friends. I miss relaxing. And even weirder, I end every day feeling un-finished. There may have been many great things that day, but there always seem to be so many more left unfinished.

So... kind of a funny story, but really a greater, overshadowing reality.

I'm tired!