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Be warned, this one is a bit more deep than usual… but… this is a fun place to share deep thoughts. 🙂
Today I noticed a strange mark on my hand … and thought nothing of it. Then a little while later, I noticed it had not gone away…. immediately I thought of my brother-in-law Jeff. Jeff had some crazy (somewhat similar) marks on his leg (much much more severe) just before he died in 1998. All of a sudden, I remembered the fragility of life. I was just made to wonder… what if that same thing happened to me? Jeff found those marks, and one week later, he was dead. That was it. Very sudden and crazy.
So, thoughts of leaving my wife and little kids (one still to come!) alone, without a dad, started to fill my head. Thoughts of all the stuff I wish I could “have done” better… and even thoughts of how great it will be for this life to be done and my real one to begin with Jesus. That will be simply amazing.
And then I just prayed, and asked God to bring me peace and at that moment, I was totally fine. But I had a renewed perspective on life again.
Jen has been rather hard to live with during this pregnancy… not very nice sometimes and quite moody. And, while I know that’s “normal” for pregnancy… it’s still not very fun, and I have not been nice in return. All of a sudden… none of that silliness matters, and I resolve to live every day to its fullest. Not letting petty things get in the way, or carry on for a long time…
I think of the way I wish I could spend more time with my boys. I love them so much. But often many other things take my time from them. Today, I decided to drop more things and make more time with them. I love them.
And you know the funny part? What is so cool about this whole thing?
The mark is gone. I feel fine. Funny how a little mark can change a life. At least point it in a new direction.
And, the truth of what I was thinking is still very present. There is no guarantee of tomorrow, or even the next minute. So, for those of you still reading….
Consider this your little mark.