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I often think about what I could be doing. If I could just do this, that would be great. If I only had time for that… If I could somehow manage to do this… I am always thinking about the possibilities.
Sometimes that is a good. It doesn’t hurt to dream, or to imagine something better. It’s good to have goals, and aspirations, and even dreams that seem unreachable. It’s even good to think on them from time to time. That can keep you going when life doesn’t seem to be.
But, I think I have been missing what I have.
Let me explain myself, because so far you’re probably thinking, “Uh, Greg… who doesn’t?”
The other day, I received an invitation to talk to people in a bar about life in Jesus, I got an IM from a friend who would like to get together to chat about things of the kingdom, and I got a few more of those as the day wore on. Then after a phone conversation or two, it hit me. I am right where I want to be. I have complete freedom in my schedule to just talk to people. I can drop what I am doing (on most occasions) and just hang out with people who drop by whether physically, or more often, electronically. Because of the nature of my jobs, I am free to be available.
THAT IS SO WHAT I WANT.
For a long time now, I have been able to share thoughts, and my life with people through this medium called “blogging.” And, through my various other websites, I am able to express myself through words on a page. I even got to release a book this year. So, I get to write, like I have always wanted to.
And because I am self employed as a musician, and now a web and graphics designer, I can work when I am able to. Conversely, I can not work when that is beneficial. I can take an hour or two off here or there for a meal with friends, or time with my family, or any such visits. I can take a few minutes here and there to chat with people about life with God. I have great flexibility!
And actually, I love what I do. I love to create web pages. I love to sing the music God has given us. I love making music with my wife. I love that every bit of my day (mostly) is creative in some way. That is definitely who God made me to be.
Yet with all of this, I still manage to complain about how much money comes in. I find ways to worry about how to pay bills that are now overdue. I am able to look past all that Father has provided and fret over the things I do not yet have. How does this happen?
As I mentioned, I realize we are all prone to it. You have been there. An eye-opening moment where you realize all that you have, and how you have missed many chances to show gratitude rather than a complaining attitude.
We’ve all been there.
But I think the difference yesterday was I finally realized that God really has put me where I long to be. 🙂 So, what am I longing for? I’m already there!
Thank you Father, for you careful arrangement of people and places and opportunities in my life to both sharpen me and allow what you have beautifully worked into my life to flow into the lives and hearts and thoughts of those you’ve placed around me. It really is a marvelous fabric of life you have woven.
May God reveal to you what a beautiful place he has you in right now. Right where you are.