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The weight of my financial burdens is threatening to crush me once again. All of my simple trust that “things will work out” and that my Father loves me have become dim and blurred by the passing of due dates and the nearly empty bank account (and the shortage of forseen income). And all of this while we face the loss of a significant amount of regular income at the end of this month.
It’s been a little rough around here in that arena.
But today it’s kinda like God opened my eyes again. I was able to see again how much work I currently have in the world of web and graphic design and how I can barely keep up. And then I was reminded that I did not procure any of said work. It came to me. I did nothing to initiate it.
I know that he takes care of us. I know that he loves me, and knows what I need. I know that I do not need to bear the burden. But… I still do. A lot. I am just insane. (Once heard that term defined as doing the same thing and expecting different results… so, I guess I qualify. Break out the straight jackets…)
Thank you God for knowing what I need, and for taking care of it, even when I try and take that role from you. Please help me to have peace as I learn to trust you more. Thank you for providing in your perfect timing, and please forgive me for complaining and thinking that I have a better plan. I know that I do not.
But you do. Thanks for the reminder today.